Not so much because of that, but because of what else my doctor told me
I know that effacement and dilation doesn’t necessarily mean you’re about to go into labor, but my doctor said that her head is EXTREMELY low
He said that because of how low her head is already, my labor should be fast, I probably won’t have to push for that long, and I could go into labor at literally any minute now
Oh yeah and when he checked babe’s heart rate, he said that I was having contractions. I just couldn’t feel them lol
Obviously anything can happen and I might have a long labor and I might have to push for hours and I might not even go into labor for as long as two weeks from now, but I am staying positive because the idea of my babe coming soon sounds fabulous!
My mom and I have been perfectly fine my entire pregnancy, and of course now when I could go into labor at any minute, we start fighting like crazy. I wish I had friends or something so I didn’t have to be stuck at home with her all day *le sigh*
Also, I’m having extremely intense cervix pain. I know that doesn’t really mean anything, especially with no contractions, but my doctor checks my dilation and effacement tomorrow (YES!) and I’m hoping (and expecting) to be 100% effaced and at least 1-2 centimeters dilated ~keepin my hopes up high~
I’m really hungry but I don’t want to leave my room because my mother’s out there and seeing her face will make me angry
Pretty Little Liars comes on in less than 10 minutes
You guys have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to reblog this post from myself. I posted this on November 10, 2010-18 days after my period was supposed to come. Two days later I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. Today is June 13, 2011 and my due date is just 18 days away.
Two marriage proposals in one episode?! SERIOUSLY?!
My sister and I aren’t currently talking. Why, you ask? It’s over powdered doughnuts. Because I ate all of “her” doughnuts. WHATEVS.
Anyway, she is a huge Grey’s Anatomy fan and I am watching it for the first time (I started about a week ago and I can’t stop). Since we’re not talking, I don’t have anyone’s room to run into and be all “OH MY GOD” to. So, tumblr…I am left with you.
SO I went to the hospital earlier because I am the most paranoid person ever. Babe’s movements haven’t been as frequent these past few days, and I just wanted to be sure everything was okay. I know movement is supposed to slow around this time, but I was up every five minutes last night because the thought was bothering me so much. I wasn’t going to be able to breathe properly until I got the “Everything is OK” from someone, so this morning I called my OB, but he didn’t answer. We also went to his office, but it was closed, which was weird. So we just went to the hospital and they checked fetal movement for a couple of hours and everything is fine! They said I’m probably not feeling her as much because I haven’t been eating and drinking enough (lol yeah OKAY). The nurse said my OB will probably send me back a few more times before I give birth, to make sure everything is A-OK.
My mom thinks babe is coming on the 12th. THE 12TH. That’s in two days! I doooon’t think so, lol. I have zero labor signs. But then again, sometimes labor just happens out of nowhere so yuh neva know. She thinks it’s going to be that day because I guess we have quite a few family members born on June 12th.
And then Caroline (who is psychic, I swear) thinks she’s coming sometime after Wednesday, but by the middle of the week after that. So sometime between the 16th to the 22nd.
I just know that time is going to go by incredibly slow. Hurry up, little one! I want you here soon!
That was the last thing you ever said to me in person. We were sitting in your car, in my driveway. You broke the silence with “I think I’m just going to go home”. I wanted you to come inside, so I, in a bitchy tone, said “Fine”. You said “I’ll see you later” and you smiled. I said “Yeah, sure” and walked into my house. That was the last time I ever saw you.
I’m full term today. And yet it feels like just yesterday I was sitting on a couch in the living room of a boy’s house when you walked in. I looked at you for the first time and all I could do was laugh. That was three years ago, and sometime within the next three weeks, I will be giving birth to your daughter.
I feel like people think I’m not happy. I hope everyone, especially you, knows that I am. I am very happy. I love my child more than anything in this world and I haven’t even met her yet. She is everything to me. I am happy.
Taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone Tell me that you’re alone, tell me on the telephone Feel your heart it breaks within your chest now Try to get some rest now, Sleep’s not coming easy for a while, child
“Some day you’re gonna have a baby and you’re gonna feel overwhelmed by this little life that you’re responsible for and you’re gonna think and worry that everything you do is wrong, and that’s normal. You’re gonna obsess about what to feed it, and where to send it to school, and whether it should take violin or piano. But, I’m gonna let you in on a little old secret, it doesn’t matter. Whether your kid is a concert pianist or a math genius, it just doesn’t matter because at the end of the day all that matters is if your kid is happy.”—Grey’s Anatomy
“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”—William Shakespeare